Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Some New Tsuris
11:48 PM
This is just something that I wrote...hope ya like:
Abandoned
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You're bleeding
empty and still
You're bruised
tired and ill
abandoned, lonely
forsaken and weary
your face is dirty
your eyes are teary
>Chorus<
When everyone has gone
and left you all alone
I will bring you the world
and carry the weight of it all
When there's nothing
and no one
I will be here for you
You're crying
yet tears go unseen
you feel chilled
in your bloodstream
your soul is ravaged
your heart has been raped
your spirit has been demeaned
>Chorus<
Some New Tsuris
9:24 PM
Monday, November 29, 2004
I'm back... with a vengence! Not really a vengence, just a minor irritation really.
OK so apparently since I don't believe what my mom believes, I'm immature. I was under the impression that thinking for myself and not allowing myself to be swayed by inundation and being true to my feelings was maturity. How silly I was!!!! So it looks like I'm back to Sunday morning after Sunday morning going to church, wasting my time. Oh well. Its better than the alternative (my parents stop paying for stuff, thus requiring me to drop out of school and get a job. ) I'm stubborn, but not a moron.
Speaking of money and school, here's hoping my appeal for financial aid is approved. I really can't afford to pay for another semester out of pocket. I'm thinking it will.
an hour and a half later
Well that was fun...I just took like an hour and a half long drive. Broke down. I feel slightly less shitty now. Oh I still feel plenty shitty, just not quite as much I was feeling.
I really wish I had money. Like I really need to get out of this f-ing house. I didn't realize how infuriating that little chat with my mother was. I am so totally pissed off about it. If I had the money, I would leave tomorrow. I know I sound like a spoiled brat, but I just don't know how much more of this I can take. The only thing my parents have on me is money. That's it. I can't drop out of school though. Theater is the only thing I care about anymore. I really want to do it for a living, be it tech theater, or performance. In order to do that, I need the education and the experience. I can't afford to work and go to school at the same time though. At least work enough to get enough money to move out. Maybe this summer I can get a job and make enough to move out. I'll really have to figure something out. Its not a matter of going to church. That is a stupid point. Its that I don't feel that I belong here. I find my family (with the exception of my oldest brother) to be closed-minded and suffocating. My oldest brother is the only person who understands me. He knows exactly my beliefs, philosophies and political views.
I'm out for now.
"Someone show me a way to get outa here
'cause I constantly pray I'll get outa here
Please, won't somebody say I'll get outa here
Someone gimme my shot or I'll rot here. " ---
Skid Row from Little Shop of Horrors
Some New Tsuris
10:50 PM
Sunday, November 21, 2004
well if I didn't feel useless and ineffectual already, I do now. No one's fault though. I just have issues.
Some New Tsuris
3:15 AM
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Its been a while, but I have returned to my bloggature.
So the show's goin' rathah well. Although I twisted my ankle on Fri. night in an unfortunate tequila incident, so Sat.'s performance sucked. Oh well...every show is allowed one bad night. I'm happy about the show over all.
So after
Playboy I have Madrigals. I really don't care all that much about Madrigals. I'm actually quite burnt out on choir in general. Lots of different reasons that I'd rather not go into at this point in time. Oh well. Hopefully Madrigals will make it better. Who knows
So I'm really into the BBC show
The Office. If you get a chance, check it out. It is HYSTERICAL! Its sorta Office Space-ish, but its quite different. Its just about the goings-on of the office of this paper manufacturing company. Sooooo funny. "When cherries are red, they're ready for plucking, when girls are 16, they're ready for..." "GARRETH!!"
So I've been doing so much better as of late about the whole being sad thing. However the past couple days have been a bit of a relapse. Not bad...just ever so slight. I'm just really having problems connecting with people with whom I've had no problem connecting previously. And those people who I connect well with and who make my life better have been subjected to my grumpiness and cynacism, which is unfair. Like I felt kinda bad because I invited Cara and Kay to Barnes and then the whole evening i was quiet and stand-offish and just kinda grumpy. So for that I apologize. I'm just having problems. I'll be ok.
ok I'm out for now.
"Its not often you get something thats both romantic and thrifty" --- from
The Office
Some New Tsuris
10:20 PM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
from the IMDB news page:
'Alfie' Flop Blamed on
Election
Jude Law's latest film Alfie's poor results at the American box office have been blamed on last week's presidential election. The remake of the 1966 Michael Caine comedy only took $6.5 million during its opening weekend, and landed at number five in the US box office charts. Wayne Llewellyn, the president of distribution at Paramount, blamed the Republican triumph of George W. Bush's re-election may
clash with the character's womanizing behavior. Llewellyn says, "It could be the
mood of the country right now. It seems to be the result of the election. Maybe
they didn't want to see a guy that slept around."
ok...I understand people don't like G.W. and I have no problem with that. You are entitled to your opinions, but the aforementioned article is just shameful. I mean really. Blame him for the economy if you wish, blame him for the war, blame him for political things he's done. Don't blame him because your movie is lame. Alfie didn't do well because people didn't want to see it. End of story. Short of Bush issuing a boycott of the movie, he has very little control over how well a movie does. Some people just need to grow up.
On a lighter note, COME SEE PLAYBOY THIS WEEKEND!! It opens tomorrow (Wed. 10th) at 7pm...you'll love us, I swear!
Yay for good company after rehearsal tonight...Melissa, Elliot, Scotty, Geni, Nicole and Austin are good people!
Some New Tsuris
1:58 AM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
Some New Tsuris
2:49 AM
