A- Age: 21
B- Band you are listening to right now: Harvey Danger...obscure much?
C- CD Last Purchased: Probably either Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon or Dirty Rotten Scoundrels cast album
D- Dad's name: Ben
E- Easiest people to talk to: Max, Lauren, Camille, Jeni
F- Favorite ice cream- I've never met an ice cream I didn't like
G- Gummy worms or gummy bears?: Gummy Worms all the way... and not the sour, sugar-coated kind..
H- Hometown: Evansville
I- Instruments: Guitar (electric and acoustic), bass, piano, hand percussion
J- Junior High: Oak Hill Middle School
K- Kids: none, nor will there ever be....but i do have a niece and a nephew
L- Longest car ride ever: the 14 1/2 hr. drive back from New York
M- Mom's name: Kathy
N- Nickname: Burgy, Burgdorf, Nate, Big Nate, Nate Dogg, Burg, Tobichael
P- Phobias: (is it bad that I corrected the spelling? it was originally spelled "Phobeas") spiders and crickets
Q- Quote: "I'm drowning in assholes!" from Igby Goes Down
R- Reason to smile: Good times with good people, a great performance, a good joke
S - Song you sang last: "Saw Red" by Sublime
T- Time you woke up today: 10am
U- Unknown/Little known fact about me: I'm not gay...bastards...
V- Vegetable[s] you hate: Broccoli, cauliflour, asparagus, etc...
W- Worst habit: smoking, swearing, night-time snacking
X- X-rays you've had: broken arm, lungs, back, and ankle
Y - Years since you've been to church: about one
Z- Zodiac sign: Cancer...kinda forboding huh?
so i went to type in the URL for blogger, and the keyboard didn't feel right...so i looked down , and it was upside down....i'm a moron. (note: I have a wireless keyboard and mouse, and no computer chair, so I type sitting on the floor leaning against my bed with the keyboard on my lap. This is the way the upside-down keyboard was possible).
every time i blog, i get the feeling that fewer and fewer people read this f-ing thing. Maybe its because i only update it once a month. eh.
so i got the job a Hacienda. I've been working there about 3 weeks. Its a lot of fun. I get paid this Fri., so that makes it sooooooooooooo much more fun....'cause being broke and oweing lots of money sucks. trust me.
so i've been deep in thought. WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE?!?! seriously? How does one begin the journey into what they will be for the rest of their life? I'm sick of school. I can't keep going back to school, lying to myself about wanting to be there. I don't. I need to put my ass in gear and move forward. But how? I don't even know where to begin, and frankly, i'm terrified. I don't want to stay here.
Johnny has no guide
Johnny can decide
How can you soar
When you're nailed to the floor?
thats how i feel. I'm trying to get up and move forward, but my feet are nailed to the floor and i have no way of prying them up. I hate it.
With every day that passes, I feel like I have less and less and less to offer. Its so easy for some people...why not me? Why can't I be goal-oriented and organized? Why can't I know what I want, and follow the path to get there? Why can't I commit to a goal? I've tried...I don't understand how it all works.
My life is in such a sad state of complacency and boredom right now. I'm just in this rut and i can't get out of....
fuck it for now...i'm gonna go do more of the same ol' shit...
